dacoomes

sorry i haven't posted anything in months.
my computer is still crap, so i can't do anything lately for 3D.
and because of that, my motivation for traditional work is so far below zero...

plus my life lately has just been pretty garbage /sigh

i'll try to get something posted soon.

i know i haven't been very active lately.
the motivation has been below dead.

but I just received something and all the fans of my lovely girls will like it very much i think
'hopefully' i will be able to post it in the next day or so. (just have to find the cord for my digital camera first)

Chance to get an OC of yours turned into a puppet!
Gonna see what My girls Emmie and Claire would look like puppetified...

Get your OC puppetfied(3)Edit: Will be closing and announcing teh numbers on August 1st
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I need some change in pace so I decided to do another 'get your OC puppetified'. This might be a bit chaotic because I'm going to try to use tumblr and twitter as well for announcements. Last event took place here:  with results \
PLEASE NOTE that it will not be digital art, as I haven't gotten back into digital art yet. But hey, free art! 
Background: 
Puppet Kai is a puppet that took form of Kai. The puppet itself has the ability to take form of any person it consumes, and there are many of them. 
If you are interested, my puppet will consume your character and transform into a killer puppet. Yarrr
Rules & agreement: 
1. Character has to be of your creation.
2. I have the right to choose to not draw your character for any reason. 
3. Results may vary in style and quality. The ch

i try not to complain too much, but i'm human, so i get depressed and feeling crappy like everyone else sometimes.

and right now everything seems to be shitting on me...
let me type out a list of why i feel like utter garbage right now.

you can stop reading if you want, some of it might get a little whiney. but those who know me a little better know I don't whine much, so to see something as big a as journal showing my feelings, something must be getting to me quite a bit.

1 so a few weeks back i got a slight increase in pay. yay, whoo hoo!
then.. immediately, the food stamp people decide to cut my benefits from $192 a month, to $30.
c'mon.. 30? that's practically pointless to even keep the food stamps going at that point.

2 haven't been able to log into my Patreon account for the past three days., so can't post anything there, can't look at the stuff posted by the people I support and can't really afford. Something is screwed up between them and Yahoo. every once in a while they send a 'verify this machine' email to make sure you are who you say you are... and well, those emails are never making it to my email. and my attempts to contact Patreon about it, I have no idea if they are even receiving any of my messages. It's frustrating me to no end, and depressing the hell out of me. Not that the 'income' from them helps me out very much, since having it for almost two years now, I'm still only making $4 a month (before fees).

3 ordered a couple small transformer toys from a guy in china. yay transformers. boo idiot guy...
i've had my ebay account for almost 16 years now, and it has had my current address in it for almost 9 of those. so when he looks at my address (2836)... he puts 238 on one of the boxes, and just the street name of the other, without any number at all. WTF
The local post office is trying to find them for me, since they were 'delivered' a week ago, according to ebay. When I try to talk to the guy i bought them from, all he does is resends me the tracking info... telling me they were delivered... no words, no apologies, no trying to help where they might have gone. like just slapping down a big "they got delivered!" would be enough. /cry

4 I haven't felt like doing art for a while now. I haven't drawn anything in a month, still need to finish about 6 more pictures for the looney tunes meets dr who, before i start the project i was going to start next. looney tunes in middle earth (close to 500 pics i was planning). but lately just been depressed when trying to work on 3D. My computer has been becoming more and more shit lately. so a picture that used to take an hour or so to render, now takes up to 5 hours, and has a 80+ percent chance of still failing...
and any picture that has 3 or more characters, and/or any decent type of background, that is pretty much sure to fail before I even start.

all of the Rel stuff Iv'e been posting lately I did over 8 months ago, the newer stuff iv'e been trying to make (chap 5) keeps failing when trying to render. Plus the story itself I wrote to go along with the pictures got lost, so everything iv'e been typing lately for her story is coming off the top of my head right then and there as i'm submitting it.

so between the computer issues and trying to figure out what the hell i'm doing with my pathetic life. (im 40 and living in a shit ass trailer behind a friends house cause i don't make enough to pay rent anywhere). That and only 2 people have commissioned me for any art at all in the past 2 years, though Iv'e had my prices on my front pages of my DA and FA and Patreon for ages. I guess my art just isn't good enough. Only one person has talked to me recently about doing anything for them. So I just haven't felt like doing art lately.

5 my GF lives about 3 hours away from me, so we don't get to see each other all the time, or very much at all lately .
because of me working Thurs-Sun, then helping my mom on Mondays. Added to her rotating weekly schedule. we haven't gotten to visit each other in almost three months now, and it's kind of driving me a bit batty.
right now I just want someone to hold in my arms, maybe cry on a little.

I didn't type this to be a whiney little baby, I had to get it off my chest though.
That's about it I guess, thanks for reading if you did. I'll just shut up now.

My home computer is becoming a pain in the ***
It's running slower and having trouble doing more than 1 thing at a time...
It's always been kind of slow, but lately it's becoming unbearable.

Not a single Render has come out decent (or at all) in the past 3 weeks.
Spots all over the place, half the render isn't finished when it says 'finished'.
Today I started a render before going to the shower. I come back to a blue screen error.
Started the render again as I left for work (at work now), so won't know if it works or not for another 9 hrs.

I can still post stuff for a while, Rel Chapter 4 still has another 62 pages that are already finished.
Rel Chapter 5 has it's first 39 pages done, but I might not start posting that one until the full chapter is complete.
Aya, which I started two weeks ago has up to page 34 complete.

The Mechs are where I keep getting stuck at, I only have another 4 pages done before I run out of completed pages for them.
Those are the renders that keep failing on me lately.

So... back to computer issues... I have no idea what I'm going to do about it. Having only 2 patrons thus far on Patreon: (my GF for $3 a month, and another person for $1), I can't even cover the $31 i support to other people each month without tossing money into the bank, heh. Let alone try to save up for getting a better machine.

I know my art isn't the best, in any medium, but some people like it and I enjoy doing it. I have had commissions open for a while now, but nobody has been interested. Plus my day job doesn't let me save much, (only make $60 a week before bills)

any ideas or suggestions, (or commissions), let me know.